Someone better than I

Somewhat like Moses' plea, "Lord, please! Send someone else."

I still say, send somebody else!
Someone better than I.
Looking at my own ordinariness.
weaknesses & strengths,
ability & incapabilities...


Still you say GO. "I am BIGGER than you.
This is about what I specialize in.
Taking the ordinary and making it extraordinary.
That all people will know that I am behind it all, and will exalt Me."


So I will go. 
And do my best with Your help, Your grace & Your supernatural power at work in my life.
Be Exalted my God!

countdown!

Just for the record...

I graduate in 3 weeks!  

4 years of study coming to its end. It's been an amazing journey. 

Looking forward to ending it well :) 

For what the future beholds, constantly reminding myself its in Your good hands.

And that I will surrender. No other way. Position me where You see well & fit. 

Yours.

Pledges

Are always best kept.

Even though painful at most times...

I do wonder if I were to withhold just a little bit so tht I will have more? hehh.

Trusting that You never shortchange :)

Happy Birthday (:

Spending the last few mins with U 

Surprisingly it is tears n sobs tht come to my eyes.

My heart somehow full of something I don't understand..

Just recommitting my life to You.

I don't know what You're doing or going to do

I feel as though I cannot breathe.

But one thing I know, and it's tht whatever happens,

I just want this life of mine to please You.

Nothing else matters.

So help me Lord.

Dealings...

of the heart..

When they look at you, who do they see?

You be lifted high
Help me to fall on my knees so it's You that they see not I
Jesus You be lifted high

"There is no ongoing spiritual life without this process of letting go. At the precise point where we refuse, growth stops. If we hold tightly to anything given to us, unwilling to let it go when the time comes to let it go or unwilling to allow it to be used as the Giver means it to be used, we stunt the growth of the soul. It is easy to make a mistake here, “If God gave it to me,” we say, “its mine. I can do what I want with it.” No. The truth is that it is ours to thank Him for and ours to offer back to Him, ours to relinquish, ours to lose, ours to let go of – if we want to find our true selves, if we want real life, if our hearts are set on glory."  

-- Elisabeth Elliot

OK Lord, I let go. Even where it's hard...and let You have Your way...

a question unanswered

Dear Lord,

I'm settled in my heart with what I'm supposed to do.

But somewhere inside me, 
I know I'm still wondering the answer to an unanswered question.

Silly me to still be hoping.

After all these years.

Telling myself maybe. Just maybe.

I'm not expecting it to happen. 

But i've buried it time after time only for it to be uncovered again.

I think You know..

That tiny speck uncovered.

Enough to get me thinking if I should just let it go once and for all.

And move on :)

What happens when you come around?

What happens if you don't?

Are you?

I've left it waiting for this long, I think I want to know...

So that I can bury this silliness for good =]

Hands

"Whatever you put your hands to do, it will prosper.

Ask and you will receive."

Would You fill these empty hands of mine with the fruits and bloom.

As I work in Your garden Lord.

Bless every work, let it bloom and grow for Your glory.

 Am learning to count it a privilege and pure joy to do all that my hands find to do. (:

Pink with thorns

Beautiful to behold. Prickly to touch.

Thank you for the rose and illustration that goes with it.

I appreciate the kind words and truthfulness.

I've given it some thought..

and I think

She can only try to be less thorny.

Cos there's bound to be some hidden thorn somewhere.

The harder one tries, the more painful her pricks become.

The less careful one is, the likelier one gets pricked.

But in the same manner, 
The more gentle one is, the less likely one will be pricked. 

So, I think the question to ask is, "is this rose worth it?"

For the thorns can only be removed by her Maker or her Gardener.

And when the right time comes for the rose to be presented,

I'm sure the thorns would have been 'cut off' or pruned.
And presented before you, a rose unlike any other.

lol. what say you?

My Question Answered

Do I need to stop saying its OK when it's not?

Part of me wants to scream out YES. But, the other part says that it's OK. and even if its not, it will be OK.

And so I shall be rest assured in that. Cos You make all things beautiful in Your time.

I will trust in You.

When stormy clouds roll in,

And trials come my way.

I'll let my heart hear Your still small voice calling me to look to You.

That it will be OK.

Thank You for loving me.